actually i hate the postponement now because the thought of everyone else finishing their exams no matter how screwed up it was beats bearing the extended agony of studying, made worse if you aren't even settling down to do it, well at least not on a regular basis.

decided to give myself a break today and I thoroughly enjoyed that not because I did more work nor the not-so-extra sleep but the whole delusion that it's still the holidays and I can continue with my parasitic lifestyle. how I wish this would last but the truth is, CT2 is really just 5 days away and the whole H1N1 hoo-ha isn't helping to make school less boring. I'm pretty damn sure half the population will get infected anyway no matter how hard we try to prevent the pandemic from spreading, because in truth it's not really slowing. the severity is mild here but the influence is widening.

oh speaking of which, my little fantasy is replaying in my mind again which creates yet another disillusion and as usual, I'm praying for it to come true. i seriously wonder how many times do I have to fall so that I would learn. shrugs.