As the day draws nearer, I actually feel a sense of yearning yet mixed largely with guilt. The smile will dissipate whenever I remember it. I just could not force a upward curve on my lips. I know it would have serious repercussions but believe me, I just wanted everything to end normally. Get it over and done with. I don't aim for anything. I just hope that everything will spill over and let this be a lesson for me.

Please.