somehow i can't help but feel that the same hollowness is returning, just like 2 years ago. i'm scared, really. i don't want the same situation to occur again, especially not when i thought i would never fall into the chasm once more. i guess, i was wrong. still, what else is new? nothing good ever seemed to last. with the new influx, it seemed like i am never getting any peace. gone are the peaceful days.

this whole week has been a fluke. i like and miss my parasitic way of living. i'm regretful if i ever said i wanted more perks in my boring life.

my heart stirs for vb again, in one way or another. noo.