CNY came and went, as usual. had four reunion dinners this year though. 2 with family and relatives and 2 with A14 : D cool.

school's been...boring and tiring every single day even though i have no training and stuff and probably just rot in front of the computer but, i'm still fatigued. lazy vibes. then again, there's this 'hearting' issue going on but i've become somewhat immune to it. i just can't control my thinking. makes any sense? no? then too bad, but i don't understand myself either. relax, i'm still in the self-acceptance phase.

oh and i realised that going to school on time has so many benefits. for example, it's not as cold, and there are more empty seats on the bus. i should feel less guilty about not being early for school. J1s have arrived, which is a bad thing unless they don't fight with me for my mee stall. hello J1s, go queue at the western or malay or indian or whatever stall but NOT mee stall. ahh, why am i talking rubbish. i need my daily dosage of prawn noodles.

then today while helping out in orientation, i stumbled upon two issues, two nostalgic faces actually. When I saw SY, my first reaction was to turn away. why, idk. it was like a reflection of the past haunting me, and i felt really guilty even though i did not literally do anything but i believed i did cursed silently last time. then the next issue, i think I saw xiaohai, like the xiaohai from FL. u know i think i actually saw him in school a few times already b4 school officially started. that face plus from anglican and of course the height, uncanny similarities. i think he doesn't rmb me, afterall it has been 1, 2, close to 5 years? i'm starting to talk he's really xiaohai, oh well.

luckily or unluckily, there are no lectures this week. yay? one thing for sure, yay for zero-econs lecture.