how reprehensible and sordid can you get janard. have u stoop so low? no, i was never in heaven.

back from 3D2N council chalet. can't believe i really stayed for both nights, thought i would return on day 2.

8th december - day 1.
arrived late cause it was raining heavily, only reached at 4pm when meeting time was 3:15pm. waited for some of them to pick me up cause a few were at NTUC buying tidbits and other junk. aranda's the one where i had np squad chalet during sec3! or iszit sec4 or sec2? haha forgot. kinda spacious but lack of good amenities. played cards and mahjong and talked rubbish. BKed for dinner, and sauntered around EHub which was kinda aimless cause there wasn't a specific destination or planned activity to do. ended up not doing anything and headed back for chalet. cards and mahjong and talk rubbish again(CMR). once again,we were conned by greg to go for night walk -_- and we kinda sat at changi park and engage in meaningless convos. got tired and back again to chalet where i played mahjong the whole night.

9th december - day 2.
a group of the councillors went cycling and the J2s caught a movie. being me, of cause i skipped cycling and stayed behind in a futile attempt to sleep. i tot i had dozed off but was awakened by the mahjong tiles and opened my eyes. barely 40mins had just passed by. got frustrated and joined in the mahjong session but never won. had subway for lunch and did the usual routine - CMR! haha, real parasitic life. eat and play but no sleep for me ): council dinner at Thaipan Changi where massive camwhoring session took place. pictures not with me, but i didn't took a lot, merely group shots. by the second night, there were only a few ppl left. tried to occupy my time while reading and was successful till the other batch of J2s returned. played mahjong again the entire night and won quite a few rounds. woo. haha, they were quite funny and childish to some extent but i could tell they seemed rather close. i wonder if i will have a clique like that in council too haha.

10th december - day 3.
frankly, the reason i stayed behind was ... walked greg and irving to the mrt early in the morning at 7+, should have brought along my bag cause i ended up looking ridiculous walking to and fro. while on the train, it was as though the fatique suppressed from the lack of sleep for 2 nights was overwhelming me and i nearly fell into deep slumber. i was so scared i would just doze off and fall. curbed myself which was excruciating and quickly headed for home. instant KO when i stepped into the house. dropped the bag, and jumped into bed even though i felt super unkempt. woke up earliar than expected, at 2pm. i'm feeling super tired right now though. no staying up tonight.

what was that that i felt. shame, jealousy and perhaps even envy.