hmm, national day celebration today was...okay, and so much btr than cchms' though it's incredibly short. anyway, wore a red shirt + school pants (seems like the norm in sch today, shrugs) and i actually reached the bus stop super early, like 7.23am. so i exercised and practised 'the way of slow meticulous walking' though i've been doing that every morning lah, but oh well, today's a whole new level. idk why i'm talking this also, totally no meaning. anyway, the assembly today was rather different but, the parade is so informal. somehow, i just can't stand it becuz it just ain't perfect and seriously i wna stress, IT'S FREAKING INFORMAL! could hear KC's commander from our side and she sounded like a MAN! argh, i typed too much nonsense in this post. after parade was concert in the hall, pretty simple just teachers' catwalk and dance item. ta-da, end! slacked around in school watching the inaugural drumming competition, kinda funny though and then decided to go suntec/marina with limpei and jaslow. being early, marina was soooooooooo empty, and we went bowling instead. i came in 3rd! (okay, technically last) den we went yoshi to eat, at least jaslow did.

after finally killing away time, evil called us to go j8(like finally!). so reached J8 and met up with the rest(majority, at least) and went to pizza hut. there was quite some disagreements about the seating but, we still managed to grab ourselves a decent table for the 10 of us. had basil crayfish WHOOOO (but expensive, and the serving isn't alot) and then usual gossiping (i didn't of cuz, being nice ahem) and talking and crapping. ahhh, time well-spent (i know teachers will disagree). they decided to go town but i felt so sleepy and so din go wif them, but abit regret cuz i was more or less awake when i reached home. watched moonlight resonance ep9, bleach 183 and read the manga. and here, blogging in great details, for idk what reason.

i kept thinking it wasn't you, but somehow i did know, and just didn't want to face up to it. for i now know, all might soon be over. i told myself, it's one principle i will/should not break. i made the wrong step, and I should atone for it instead of sinking further into the quagmire. courage, come on, i can do it.

anyway i happened to chance upon this poem which i tot was really good.


Sonnet 146, Shakespeare

Poor soul, the centre of my sinful earth,
[...] these rebel powers that thee array;
Why dost thou pine within and suffer dearth,
Painting thy outward walls so costly gay?
Why so large cost, having so short a lease,
Dost thou upon thy fading mansion spend?
Shall worms, inheritors of this excess,
Eat up thy charge? is this thy body's end?
Then soul, live thou upon thy servant's loss,
And let that pine to aggravate thy store;
Buy terms divine in selling hours of dross;
Within be fed, without be rich no more:
So shalt thou feed on Death, that feeds on men,
And Death once dead, there's no more dying then.

enjoy.