today!
i always hate it when meetings are being held early, i mean why fix such a time like 8am on a mundane saturday morning when every1's just sleepy and tired and restless and just wna do nothing. a little longer of sleep would improve the situation but no, still have to drag myself to school. ugh, suddenly the parasitic lifestyle seems so good, too good actually. meeting was...well, okay and we kinda bought the stuff we need already. what's left is wait till monday and bring the stuff there, pray that councillors and NL students turn up, cross fingers and hope no screw ups and finally wish that everything ends well. went home to put down stuff and take money b4 gg bak to parkway again.
once again the whole violence wasn't reunited. pam had to be at cch, ahpa had PW while jack have tuition at 3pm. so it was me, lucas, celeste and eunice for lunch at food court (reminds me of the not tasty noodles i had ._.). den we went back school and played vball! now i know why mikasa ball cost so much more than wilson. wilson's not bad, it's light and bouncy but it hurts more when u hit it compared to mikasa, of cuz perhaps wilson had too much air inside luh. i tried jump serving again but apparently being the noob, i couldn't do it. the most i could do was float serve, but float serve is also v shaky. i need more practice! anyway, i really think my passing sucks. most of the time, i would hit the ball yes but slanted which is not intended. which means my control over the ball sucks. but but! i think my setting gotten a little better, and i'm practising back setting as well. nvm, i'm happy cuz i got to play vball today. haha, i sound kiddish.
what do u expect? some officers were just being their usual meno-pausal self again. i mean i was nice (like once in a while luh) and said hello to one of them, just to be smacked right in the face with an emotionless return-look. oh wow, so much for trying to be warm and nice. and then, u see ms holey/tafoni again; boring the same belligerent look as always. after so many encounters of trying to utter a hello without receiving a pleasant reply, i decided not to greet her and i'm sure i made the right choice. why, cuz she just brushed past us without even turning to face us. i understand we do have issues in the past, and it's difficult to forget them and get together on a high-cheery-happy mood. but all's in the past, we may not be friends but at least we were acquaitances once. a simple hello or smile could help ease the uneasiness and awkwardness in each other when we see each other right, so much for supposedly being more prudent than us since u are a trained officer. in case u ppl dun know, here's how a tafoni looks like:
on the other hand, i didn't voice it out but is it only me or do every1 else also feel this distance between us and pam. i seriously felt that when we called her over to chat and when we invited her to join us for dinner. it's like we used to hand out together and she seemed rly eager to come wif us too in the past but now, there's this...can i say air of indifference that's totally different from what we, at least i know about her? perhaps it's due to her identity now as a cadet inspector that had trained or maybe restricted her from being too close wif us in front of other officers and cadets. i dun know, but it din feel good. what we hoped wouldn't happen when pam first became CI (which is we would distant) may come true eventually, maybe it's a vicious cycle. sigh.
end of typing. this is pretty long alr and i'm lazy. bye!
