i think it's really me who gotta smack myself in the face and learn the art of getting along with others well. sometimes, i show what i feel all over my face and in the process, offend alot of ppl. sometimes, i dun even bother to clarify whatever misunderstandings becuz 'i dun care', and then in the process offend alot of ppl again. lastly, sometimes i dun give a damn any abt thing tt's happening and once again, i pissed ppl off. the most frequent action by me tt cause others to seethe with fury is my frequent act of 'emoing'. i dun find that emoing but simply not talking equates to emoing to most ppl. okay, maybe there are times i shld speak up alittle but i think i reserve the right to remain silent. i could be processing some events in my mind when i'm not talking, so yea pls dun label me as 'emoing' becuz of tt. sometimes, u get frustrated, i get overwhelmed with choler too.

sorry if all the above doesn't make sense but it's not supposed to anyway, unless u're me or an empath. life's been inspirational all of late. guitar concert yesterday perks the interest in me again to seriously learn how to play the guitar. today, seeing the dance concert rehersal intrigued me to take up dance lessons. and i think i should, considering how unhealthy CT is. talk talk and no exercise haha. alright, who wna take up hip-hop lessons with me at O School! i juz hope my bones dun break dancing hip hop.

anyway, i committed the insidious sin again. it felt both good and bad. like always. but shit, i gotta stop thinking such stuff cuz it just shows what a loser i am, what a failure in life i am. in short, i'm just a miserable liar. screw that.