i feel embittered! no, not because i was flinged out of CTC exco(yea, in case u all are wondering, i didn't get in. but hey, i'm nt sad or like sinking into depression.). it's because i need a second cca, yes i know i've said this like umpteen times but, yea u get the idea. it's DESPERATION! after looking thru the sports cca, i think my options are: 1) Air Rifle, 2) Taekwando, 3)Track and Field and 4)Volleyball(yes yes i know i'm still wishing for the impossible, just ONE day i might get in u know haha).

but i'm trying not to start yet, yes i know it's alr v late alr and i shld join asap, but it has rly been a tiring week and i wna enjoy the short freedom i have now. though i believe the northlight adhoc is gna start meeting soon. sian.

i guess i've matured more or less, at least i think so. i've learn to take things in the stride, as in i'm not as insistent and stubborn as i was in the past where i wanted everything to go according to my way. i do feel affected but tt's juz part and parcel of life, i mean life's full of ups and downs. learn to embrace the failures, evaluate what has gone wrong and i believe i will be a better person. i feel relieved actually, because i've learnt much from this exco selection now that i reflect and recall during those times. i'm proud of myself becuz i took the step out to pursue my ambition in the council.

oh and i saw a scene on the bus to sch today, okay maybe it's nt the first time i saw but i rly find it..meaningful. i see this J1(i regconize him as a vballer and ruth's classmate)on the bus wif his little sister (i presume is sister, and she looks like p1 only) sharing the ear-piece. the brother(J1) was sleeping away and the little sister was like lying on him at times or sth, den when they reach the stop, the little sister will wake her brother up and walk to the exit. but she then turned back and pat her brother whom she found sleeping again to wake up. i find this like super heartwarming la, like the family love being displayed fully through these tiny and mundane events that happen everyday. hmm, perhaps i have not had such experience bonding v closely with my family tt kinda stirred my feelings. anyway this is random.

bye.