i dno if this is called slacking. but i've finished mostly wad i've planned to do and so i've been using the comp for the past 4hrs. hmmm...

i heard screams of rejoice today, saw heave of reliefs everywhere in the sch. most ppl are freed from the despair and agony of having to study for exams, yet i'm still stuck in my miserable intangible dome, confined and grounded. i can't break out, nor do i have the strength to. it's suffocating, draining, both mentally and physically, to some extent spiritually.

the danger labelled as O levels Cambridge Exam draws near, i've nearly arrived. it's only 2 days away b4 i officially step into the competing arena, some have already entered today to vie for the best position. of cuz, i would expect and deem myself to emerge victorious as well from the fight comparable to the 2nd world war. uncanny as it may sound, but it's how it feels to me. destructive yet excruciating. rumble! let the battle begin...

i've got to discipline myself more. the big war is coming, survive, endure, brace thru this calamity befalling and utopia would soon be possible. but is it really coming true? i'm nt sure, it's uncertainty bodeing after the ceasefire...

this is life, accept it. stop acting like a weakling. stop living in ur own delusion. i hear my voice sonoring deep within, but i feel incapacited to do it. move ur muscles, exercise ur brain, kill ur brain cells, LET THEM THINK! i wna cross the boundary, i wna keep away from this line that separates reality from virtual. ok, enuff whinning, i think i will go studying now....NOT, it's 9pm, Metamorphosis.