counting down, this is so torturous! 3 more papers only but muz stretch til 2 more weeks, ANGRY! but i'm hella glad there's no more physics, no more crazy muggings.

today hcl was ok, the compo/ying yong wen = moderate bah. compre was ahem, easy. i think wun score too bad bah.

i can't wait to hide in my pathetic coop and stay enclosed til i rot and die during the holidays.

still thinking whether to turn up on 10nov or iszit 9th, frankly speaking i'm nt v sure or interested. there's this stint haunting me, tangling my veins. sometimes when i look back and think of it, i feel i have nth much to lose or i shld say, maybe i didn't have much memoirs to speak of. might as well dun impose myself and look so redundant, so disposable of. perhaps, i would nt be overcomed by this apathy then. i juz feel so bereaved of all joys. i shld have foreseen it, it's a path i muz walk alone, i knew it from the start. i tried to abate it but i failed, now it hurts, it's reality.