prelims prelims, ah stress. like real. i'm not even feeling much of the effects of the upcoming prelims and not to mention o lvls. why, i'm nt sure myself. i kept thinking there's alot of time left b4 the tropical cyclone approaches. perhaps wad i'm experiencing now is when the eye of the storm is passing thru, calm and relaxed and peaceful, though torrential rains and strong gusts will sweep me off my feet. okok, so much for geog huh. at least it shows i did studied. i dun deny i study, but the truth is how much did i read and out of those, how many % actually remained in my head and allow me to access them whenever i need. hurts to say but, maybe 50% of everything?

i need to feel the heat! although ppl say it's good not to be affected by the kan-chiong wave that has been infecting the sec4s, but it's not helping. i need it. i need it to spur me to study as much as i can, not juz a chapter of 1 subject a day and that's it, studied. maybe it's gna make me v jumpy and cranky, but come on, make me tensed, make me scared, make me wna study.

i have to agree with vaneh. being at home makes me feel so useless. the only thing i do is stare at this screen right in front of me and dwindle my time away like tomorrow is never approaching. the 'i'm gna to study at 8pm i promise' mindset juz keeps setting in my head. i dno why i'm typing all these but, i really need motivation to study. damn. why can't i juz mahor in the law faculty like now?