finally the damn debriefs are coming to an end. today was better than the other 2 days though i guess, was rather light. had e.maths p1 and geog p1. e.maths only got 26/40 but i kinda expected it. i knew i din study enuff to do that well for paper 1. but at least it's a 65 if converted to 100. tmr's p2, shld be much better bah, hope got 44 at least upon 60 for a A2 and it will be my first ace in this entire mid yr if i get 70.

geog p1 was horrible. i think i got like 23 or 24 the AVERAGE mark while others are like getting 30+. kinda frustrated over geography, it's not as if i din study and it's nt as if the others studied SO much mre than me that caused this big disparity between the scores. i admit they definitely studied mre thoroughly than me but surely i din study so much lesser after like 2-3 days of mugging. i dun even know why i even bothered to attempt the FYS qns. geog p2 is tmr too like 'oh great, another crushing defeat' i din even finish the paper, kissed gdbye to 21 mrks. i can assure myself i rly put in my effort to study for all these bloody papers which is gna bring abt another uproar , but luck is juz nt on my side?

i think i'm gna have another session of quality time with my parents where they will scream their heads off like there's nobody living beside us and blame me for nt studying though they did see i was mugging at home. to add on to the tension tmr, there's the wonderous physics. i sort of set up my mind to drop physics liao actually, though i dun wna fail for tmr's physics debrief.

unbearable. debriefs are adding on to the whole field of problems going thru in my head. damn. this juz isn't a good year. cambidge keep pushing the o lvls early and it's juz becoz they wna TEST if the next yr's batch can make it in time for Os anot. wth are we some sort of guinea pigs. if we dun do well, cambridge can draw the conclusion: oh this schdule wun work and that's it, end of story while we're stuck with this scarred cert and beg the schools to take us in. teachers keep stressing the numerous numbers of syllabus that's yet to be taught for o-lvl. what's the world coming to. the whole pressure all coming down on us with no ventilation, can't...breathe..