i feel an immersely intense pressure weighing down on me, i really do but i feel helpless. mid year? they always seem so faraway, but when in actual fact they might already be rooting next to you before u even realize it. when u finally snap out of delusion and back to reality, perhaps it will sting u so much, so deep til your blood flows out profusely and never stopping... that's life isn't it? mye is really killing me, spare me the agony. i can't cower in fear, neither can i avoid it.

anyway, i feel comforted when i saw my squad's own blog. yes, a squad blog shldn't be too surprising. but they're merely sec1s, sec1s who have yet to even gone thru 20activities yet they are so bonded, so united to start their own squad blog and record all they've gone thru together in NP, the keyword is together. reminicing back to when i'm a sec1, do i even bother interacting with my squadmates? i dun, i was merely a shadow of my own, shameful isn't it? but i'm really glad for their unity, that i am now able to pass out with joy, and not fear and regrets, becoz i've accomplished what i wanted to do: to mould a squad, nt individuals but a squad closely knitted together. it may nt be becoz of me, but i do feel really happy, really exuberent for that will be my greatest achievement in NP. i do hope they retain that innocence and unity in them thruout in NP, and of cuz outside NP. rock on, my sec1s. =)