Friday, March 09, 2007 @ 9:35 PM
有时候真想问自己是否真的能把一切的名利与渴望都看透，能否不看到别人比自己成功就眼红。我甚至觉得自己的品格很不高尚，根本不值得任何人来同情我，来和我做朋友。看到别人脸上的欢笑，听到别人所发出的嘻闹声反而让我心情很烦躁，很刺耳，有股想给他们一巴掌或对他们大吼的感觉。我们不是朋友吗，不是说好如果任何一人有成就就会互相勉励，互相关怀的吗？我不知道这种朋友之间的竞争是否正确，是否健康，只觉得原来自己一点也输不起，一点也不大方而原来社会是多么的现实，多么的无情。多希望这是最后的一次了，因我已疲惫不堪，没有精力与勇气再斗下去了...

i was glad you were here today, and u looked well . that's good, but i still couldn't bring myself to look straight at u for more den a sec when we walked past each other. but u really brightened up my day, for that thank you.